I got the clearance to swim last Thursday afternoon and I was in the pool Friday night for date night (as predicted) and then again on Saturday during a spa day where they also have many pools including a lap pool. (Hurrah!) So I brought two bathing suits, one that I could do some laps in and a foofy one that I could wear at the party pool where there’s calypso music and barbecue happening.
(Lo and behold I was back in the water on Sunday too but just in a leisurely cool myself off type of way but that’s what happens when I get a go ahead on something I’ve been missing for months).
I’ve decided that for the time being, swimming makes me feel much better than running does. It doesn’t jostle as much and surprisingly, it doesn’t hurt my midsection like I thought it would as I tried to swim with things tightened up instead of flapping in the breeze.
During my swims I got some cardio in, some upper body, some core, and it felt amazing to finally be submerged again.
No, I couldn’t swim as many laps as I could when I left off back in April, and that always discourages me a little, and when it started to as I swam my laps, I heard some words talking in my head as if someone were writing me a letter.
Reminding me that it’s not just as simple as just returning.
You have a new “normal” now. Normal isn’t what it was. Sometimes what you think the test is, isn’t the test at all. Right now the test isn’t how fast or how long. The test is doing the best with what you’ve got. Doing the best with your “new normal.” Can you do that?
The truth is, it’s hard to start over. It’s hard to watch my group training, full well knowing I couldn’t keep up right now.
In fact my new normal is:
- fewer swim laps at one time
- Mostly walking with some running in there. Somewhere.
- And when I do run, running sloooooooooow.
After 10 weeks, my muscles? Soft.
Endurance? *sigh* I don’t wanna talk about it.
And it’s taking some getting used to. Some re-evaluating. A lot of thinking. A lot of adjective changing.
So I can’t run fast. But as I ran/walked the causeway yesterday, I decided to do the best with what I’ve been given. Run up the bridge. Walk. Then run the sand on the way back. Make something about it challenging. Anything.
Last week I interviewed Austin Andrews from the Biggest Loser Season 11 (remember, he was on Team Brown with his dad? He’s awesome. And I have much more to share with you in the coming days.)
But of the many things he said, this resonated with me.
“If all you can do is crawl, START CRAWLING.”
My new normal won’t always be this normal.
But it’s what I got right now. And I’ve got to be ok with that.
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